Dead Friendship

Standing in front of a silent grave

Asking my soul to be brave

The name on it read- to friendship

My heart it seems to make a skip

I feel so aloof

Wishing to disapprove

Come back hold me once

Make the move, cover the expanse

Frustration, misery, agony and hurt

Is there anything more to assert?

Covered in my bloodstained soul

I seemed to have lost all control

Our friendship, it took a final breath

It was me who had a silent death

Alive yet dead,

I walk alone

Hollow and strained

To a place unknown

20 Things That Make Me Happy

1.       Play with my angel

2.       Going crazy without a reason

3.       Shouting at the top of my voice

4.       Falling in love

5.       Travelling to new places

6.       Day dreaming

7.       Reading randomly

8.       Debating about things i believe in

9.       Meeting new people

10.   Getting dressed up for no special occasions

11.   Try to interpret life

12.   Long drives

13.   Dancing (i have wings to fly)

14.   Adventure sports (bungee jumping, paragliding, rock climbing)

15.   Shopping

16.   Talking to close friends (gossiping)

17.   Showing off to people what i have got

18.   Spending time alone once in a while; doing nothing

19.   Cooking for mom and dad

20.   Facebooking (I guess its more of social interaction than anything else)

To You...

Dreams
Destiny
Forever
Together

Love
Live
Believe
Leave

Hurt
Pain
Agony
Affliction

Delay
Disobey
Destruction
Death

Your Gift
Thank You!

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Someday...

Looking out of the window pane

All I see is beaming light

My eyes they say a thousand words

Wishing you to recognize them all

I kept thinking about you all day long

What it would be like for us to be together

There is a sudden gush of emotions

Hopes and anxiety play their parts

I feel pain and relief all at once

I breathe in your memories

I think it is my longest breath

In my veins I can feel your thoughts running

I wish for us to be there for each other

I hope you would feel the same

One day

I look out of the window pane

And I hope to see us together forever

Playing with our kids sometimes

They seem to resemble you a lot

But their eyes,

I think they look like mine

That is because they always shine

When I think about you............

......................................

Someday

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Memories

Sitting beside a river once

I turned back to gaze the path

I remember us crossing it together

A crack of dirt beneath my feet

I saw footprints on sands of time

Those promised intended roads to take

The tenderness prevailed

With purity in emotions

When my love and trust was blind

Then the time of innocence was lost

I was listening then

When you said your final goodbyes

Couldn’t even ask you to stay

There is no moral to any of this

I wanted to convince myself

Life isn’t so bad

It answers nothing

Not alone I was there that day

I saw a reflection in pool of water

A lost ghostly impression of myself

But perhaps I guess I should be glad

That when I looked that’s all I had

There’s a taste of salt in the air

I guess it’s my own tears

I get up and start walking

On the path I now call home

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lonliness

Even though you are here

Of which I am well aware

Yet the silence spoke wrongly

Despite in each other’s company

I struggle with my loneliness

Standing on the same road

I suddenly felt an inner implode

Our paths, they seem so different

Even near me you appear so distant

I try to overcome this solitude

Seeing you tonight

I felt a chilling agitating frostbite

I feel like i no longer belong

Faking smiles to show nothing is wrong

The emptiness sneaks in, it’s a silent song

Before I die

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My brother had put up a status message exactly four months before he expired about five things people wanted to do before they died. He had mentioned it might help him choose what he wanted to do with his life. A month after his demise, we are left clueless about his five wishes that he wanted to achieve when he had time on earth.

Until now, I used to take it all as a joke. But, his loss made me go thinking. What was it that i wanted to do with my life? What were those things that topped my list?

And then I got these answers. Some of them (or maybe all of them) might sound stupid to you. But, probably this is what I am and what I really want from the bottom of my heart.

1.       I would want to see my parents happy until the last of my breath. I would also like to find someone, who would probably take care of them once I am not there. It feels weird to think somebody else taking care of them when you aren't there. But, I guess that's why they say something is better than nothing.

2.       I want to see the more of world: passing away and going to another earth(or hell or heaven whatever it really is!) might not give me that chance. I feel that this earth is a truly amazing thing that nature has made. I would love to see the most of it, and capture its true essence.

3.       Best friend: Ya! That’s true. Even I don’t know why it is there, but it does come on the third number of my wish list. I have truly amazing parents and family members (touch wood!). But when it comes to people outside this range, it somehow becomes strange. Having been ditched by a lot of close friends, I am still in search of my best friend. Hopefully, I will find one before I die! I have had a pretty interesting life till now. I wish to tell it to this person, sparing no details (This one surely deserves a big LOL!)

4.       I want to tell some people what they really mean to me. I might as well just write about them and put it up on a secret blog that they can open when I die; to really let them know what place they have had in my life.

5.       I would want people to forgive me before I die and not wait for the moment when I am no longer a part of this world. I might have done some mistakes intentionally or unintentionally to hurt people and have faced devastating results for them too. I just wish I would not be dead for them when I am still alive.